I live! Kinda.
My darling, devoted watchers (I don't deserve you in the slightest), I have been inactive on DA for almost a year.
That ends now.
To put it simply, I need you guys--and moreover, I love it here. I've been feeling a bit (or a lot) overwhelmed the past year and a half, with law school and life and everything in between, but I've never gone through a rough patch that creativity and the support of my amazing friends (including all of you!
) couldn't get me out of, and I think a large part of the toll that school has taken on my life is because I've stopped creating.
I've just been too emotionally fried to put in the love and attention and soul that makes art, art. That is dangerous and unhealthy and I won't put up with it any longer. I promise you guys--and maybe more importantly, I promise myself--that I won't let myself slip into that kind of spiral again. It takes blood sweat and tears to make art, but what I get out of art is personal fulfillment, a sense of accomplishment and a love of creation, and all of those things are vital to being.
I haven't been myself lately. Stress and worry and occasionally-debilitating hypochondria have been chewing on me bit by bit, and I slipped away from what I needed without even realizing it. I'll push through and get myself back where I'm going. I know my first artistic offering in such a long time isn't much, but for me, it feels like everything. I'm going to do better, and it starts this morning at some ungodly hour when I should absolutely be asleep.
As for my life, it goes. Things with the bf are stupid-wonderful, and the schooling actually goes relatively well. Still looking for a summer job, but I have a few potential leads...maybe. We'll see. I'm trying to think if anything major enough to mention here has happened since last V-day, but nothing comes to mind...hmph. Maybe that's one more reason to keep a journal...so I remember my own dadblamed life!